Barâ-t

Abandonment...

I have never in my life had the personal experience of being threatened with absolute abandonment. Now I realize that it comes to me naturally so I no longer worry about it. I used to cry until I fell into a silent scream. Then I used to mimic the ugly types of people. Then I used to sarcastically mimic their childish basic personalities. Now I just go on with my life and Web Page and forget they even mean anything to me as they are.

Throughout life, the Christian people are taught to be good and be good to others. Now I realize that practically no one is good to anyone but themselves and they even fail utterly at that theoretically simple task. It must be their astrology is all I can figure. Even the ones purporting to be Christians are not friendly human beings. They bad, they bad, Jah Mo! Michael Jackson. I can't even let it get to me now because it makes me feel like I am as stupid as they are. I only wish I could help them find some joy and peace. They are noisy as hell. Sometimes I have to close my window in my apartment even though it is cooler outside. That is nuts!

It finally got to me, but now I have developed a maturely solid view of it. If they're noisy, I don't take it personally 'cause they are too small to bother with. I don't know whether this is good or not, but it helps me not to get riled and it helps me to keep calm so I can really not give them something they can kick around.

I don't like going out. I have thought about it and even Christ would need the incorporeal to get them on the right side of him. I saw Chuck Norris, the martial arts Master, on a T.V. show about putting them in basic training. This would cost money and Chuck actually staged that one of them tried to escape and they shot him. I think he knows they are this bad, too.

The incorporeal is going to have to get involved and give us some peace, if it is not to get out of hand and too expensive for the citizens.

See the Deductive Reasoning button again. I have put some very special material there for anyone to read.

I will not abandon myself!

"I am almost done with my Web Page...I have to put something on about the Hebrew Zohar and Roger Bacon...I received your theoretical phone call Monday evening at about 4:30. I tried to ascertain if you weren't referencing the Samson and Delila opera that night. I wasn't sure. Another dead line phone call. I nearly missed the opera that night.

"Come Home, Pleeeeaaassseee????."